Hello, internet. I have no idea how many (or few) people will eventually stumble on this humble little blog in my tiny little corner of the internet. If I were writing for fame and followers though, I’d have given up before ever getting started. I’m not doing this because I hope to become known. My personality is such that I shy away from too much attention. Even in the midst of personalizing this blog I find myself torn between wanting to personalize it and making it TOO personal. I’m not sure I want people to know who is actually behind the computer screen.
I’ve had so many thoughts running through my mind for the past couple of months. After reverting a year ago, I feel as though I was on a sort of high. Happy to have found something that filled a void within myself that I never knew how to. Happy to find something that actually made sense to me and encouraged my need for logic and questioning. But, as with all things, the high fades. Now I find myself overwhelmed with what seems like an infinite number of things I need to learn. I sometimes feel torn between this new life and my old one.
Do I have regrets? The answer to that is a resounding NO. But that doesn’t mean that I don’t struggle. If any of you do find me out here, my hope is that something I write about might connect with you. Maybe you’ll be happy to find some stranger who feels the same way and asks the same questions. Maybe I’ll encourage someone to see the beauty in Islam for the first time.
Or maybe it’s me looking to find someone out there on my wavelength.